Yesterday I was on a meeting during the most part of the day and when I got back at my desk I found this personalized slipper shaped keychain with my name on it(pix to follow). It came with a note that said "For you..ala lang". It was from Shanelle,my officemate and I was deeply touched by the gesture and it completely took me by surprise. I love receiving gifts of all kinds. I'll be happy just to receive a paper clip. What I love the most about receiving gifts is the thoughtful act behind it. When it's given without any reason except for the pleasure of making somebody happy...of just wanting to paint a smile on somebody's face.
September 11, 2009
September 4, 2009
Holding Sand
Relationships of all kinds are like holding sand in your handHold it loosely
with an open hand, the sand remains where it isThe tighter you grasp it, the
faster it trickles through your fingers
I know this quote by heart and lots of others about love and relationships. But only now do I understand the full meaning of the quote. Blow and I have been together for 2 years and 3 months. He is my first serious relationship. I believe we’re good and happy together. It's not a perfect relationship but we're both striving to make it work.We come from different backgrounds but we have the same values and enjoy the same things. I have nothing to complain about him. He’s a saint and that’s no overstatement because only a saint or somebody insane (ahem) could put with me and my moods. We never broke up though I’ve told him countless times before that “we’re over” after a few petty quarrels. I usually start our fights because of my insecurities, past issues, expectations and jealousy then he gets mad because he thinks I don’t trust him. Our fights don’t last for more than a day, we usually settle it before the day ends when we’ve both calmed down. Lately the fights have been frequent and he’s getting fed up with me…his patience is almost running out that’s why I need to change fast. I was thinking things over and the "sand" quote came to mind. I realized that after meeting Blow, I got too carried away with being “us “that I forgot about “me”. I made him the center of my universe and got used to always having him around and doing things together. My friends became his friends. I became clingy and dependent. I made him the source of my happiness and I can’t understand why he can stand on his own and be happy without me. Now I realized that I need to find myself again and recall how to be happy by myself and not depend on other people for it. I need to realize that there’s more to life than having a relationship. Now I’m learning to loosen my grip slowly on the sand before it’ll trickle down.
August 9, 2009
Tech Savvy...not
As much as i'd like to believe that i'm a tech savvy person...i'm clearly not. There are a lot of features on my cellphone and laptop that I don't know of but I managed to discover a few that I am proud of myself *pats herself* First I discovered that I don't need to buy the smart or globe broad band connection thingy that looks like a flash disk because my trusty SE K770i can be used for internet connection with the same rate (P30 per hour I guess). And next is that I don't need to buy an LCD projector to ahmmm project/enlarge my bootleg series/movies from torrent because all i needed was a cable since my laptop is Svideo ready so voila! I can now watch Leverage on our TV set :)
July 13, 2009
Old Flame
I just got back with an old flame. I hope Blow wouldn't mind. But knowing him, i'm sure he would mind because i'll be no longer giving him my undivided attention. I even forgot that today is our 25th monthsary.Forgive me I'm only human...just one look, a touch here and there, a little caress down the spine and a sniff...the emotions came rushing back to me. How i miss books and reading! Not that it's been a longtime since i've read a book...it has only been a week hehehe The last book I read(actually re-read) was Einstein's Dreams by Alan Lightman. But I haven't been passionate about reading for quite some time.Before, a day never goes by without reading a book and when i'm not reading i'm thinking of books i want to read or possess. Anyways now after reading the book lent by Dom, The Eyre Affair by Jasper Fforde (Review to follow), I fell in love all over again with reading. I got so posessed that I became bid-happy on ebay, I placed a bid on 4 books and now my only problem is how to pay for them :hD As Alanis would sing, "I'm broke but I'm happy ..."
June 30, 2009
Simple Pleasures # 1
I want to bring this blog to life. It badly needs CPR so i thought of starting with writing short lines and phrases about my simple pleasures. Ordinary things that brings me great amount of joy.
Here's number 1.
I like it when he lays his head on my chest and drifts off to sleep just listening to my heartbeat.
June 28, 2009
No Popsicle In Sweden
My friend was in Sweden for a week. I was happy for her for the travel opportunity and all and I'm also happy that i have a chance to finally have a Popsicle CD since it is their native country! So i asked her to look for one but after visiting three records store she found none :( I thought it was as easy as looking for Eraserheads album in our records store but I was wrong. Popsicle CDs are out of stock. Well i'd better try ordering it online and maybe ill have better luck. For the meantime i'll content myself with listening to the mp3s.
May 13, 2009
May 10, 2009
Holding on
My blogmate and real life friend jae of My flipflops and notes has finally decided to close down her blog. I have also been toying with the idea of closing mine but I can't seem to find the heart to do it. I know that i've been neglecting it but I'm still hoping that someday i'll find time to update it regularly. I'm not giving up on this blog yet. Aja!!! :D
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